Absolut Thanks
hello my dearest friends,
It's been awhile since we seen each other. Regardless whether we're still that close like before. Hope you would take a min off to read this note, haa feeling kinda awkward to be saying this.. but still gonna do it!! I would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to everyone of you. I always wanted to thank you guys for the happy and unhappy times we shared in the past, but didn't had a chance to. There's also many times you guys ask me out for gathering, but I wasn't able to attend as for some personal reason. Hope you guys don't think that I'm taking all of you for granted.
There's a few occasion where you guys had made me see and remember how you guys shown your love n concern as a friends which I appreciated. I remember the period when I was serving my probation, You guys were always taking care of me and making sure I won't get into trouble. I still remember you guys knowing I was into clubbing in the past, had make the effort to party with me for a last time before my probation starts at MS club |||. Though you guys don't club during that time. Also after I completed my probation, you guys had a celebration for me a PS cafe cartel. not forgetting the muddy mud pie you guys got for me. Another occasion where I was dealing with a breakup, you guys were always cheering me up, making me feel loved with all your accompanies and kept me occupied. Also to those that always accompanied me go club to drunk my sorrows. Not forgetting the random chit-chatting, heart to heart talk during work in GC lo or in the smoking area . You guys also had been there on my wedding day, my son's full month, I would like to thank you all for attending. I also like to apologize to you guys for not entertaining you all much during this two occasion. Another occasion was during my dad's wake, I wanna thank you guys for coming down for me. Also to those who encouraging me to study and push me to go on, and those who checking out my blog in the past and gave me encouraging words and important advices. Also times where I had conflict with my wife, you guys provided me with a listening ears and hearing me brag. There's really too much to mention here.
In 09, I did some silly shit that got me into trouble again. I told myself that this would be the very last time that I'm going to behave so recklessly, as I always do things without thinking of the consequences. After that incident, I'm still paying for the shits I did with hardship and regrets every single day. I had learnt and understand many important things during this period. I'm also been able to see things in many angles. There's too much to share in here. And one of the things is to be grateful. I'm grateful to have you guys in my life. Sincerely thank you my friends. I remember one of you told me, a friends is not only somebody that party and have fun with you, or physically there for you when you need them. I understand everyone is busy with their life, to me a friends is someone who cares or quietly checking out on how u're doing, or even with a simple message of concern. I want to thank this two special friends that been there for me in this period of time, continuously encouraging me and never gave up on me though many times I didn't pick up their calls, and still making the effort to ask me out to chill so to help me distress. And the times they came all the way down for my sake, as they know my current status. I enjoyed the random chat we had everytime we met.
There's really many regrets in my life and one of the worst one was not been able to say I love you to my dad and not saying thank you to him for everything he did for me. So before I had another regret, I wrote this to thank you all for the joy, laughter, tears and memorable time we shared in the past, which I would never forget. Thank for everything you guys done for me.
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Absolut 2009 - 2010
2009
-Mr Yusof Isak-sssss lai lai lai, I'm feeling misery without uu, I'm going crazy over uu!!
-I felt the arrow piercing into my neck...
-Save me from the nothing I've become...
-No more shopping spree, no more late night king, no more vip.... no more no more~~~
-The storm is over left with the sound of raindrops.. very soon i can hear it..
-Quench My Desire...
-I repeated the same mistake again which is relying on only one pillar thinking it would nvr fall..... darn it
-If only I could be like Briton Ben Southall..
-15% obsessive compulsive, 15% schizophrenic, 75% megalomanic
-Guess once ur notoriety is smelly, its hard for u to lai lai lai like hw it used to be before..
-Miss tat kinda guilty pleasure...
-There is the time for crying, the time for laughing, the time for joy, the time for grief..
-This world falls on me again....
-The Problem is Im no longer me and my life belongs to those whom Im in debted to..
-When I'm gone, just carry on.. don't mourn
2010 Jan
-It's the curiousity and the innocence we once had which make everything in the past seem so exciting..
-It's getting dimmer.. soon it would just fade away..
-Rather then seeing it die out, i choose to extinguish it myself..
-Without darkness, there can be no light..
2010 Feb
-When you are feeling good, everything goes the way you wants it to..
-Give me smile and shiny days..
-Don't waste time on jealousy, cause sometimes we're ahead, sometimes we're behind, the race is long and in the end its only with yourself..
2010 Mar
-Suddenly it strucks me.. got dishearted and crippled..
-Can't resist the temptation of the darkside..
-Persistence is the value that help me reach my goals but also the factor that brought me misery when patience runs out. I believe what I insists, its just the matter of time. Recklessness is the cause that got me into many troubles, but it allow me to see the impossible. I experience it without any hestitation cause I doesnt want anything to affect what I believe in at that moment..
2010 Apr
-The feeling of a ice cube melting overtime..
-I'm always trying to bring back memories so to awaken some old qualities..
2010 May
-I know I let you down, but I've paid the price and still paying it everyday..
-Ideas are cheap, execution are expensive..
-We are million miles apart.. I'm outta track already because during the journey I took a wrong path and all I could see now is only my shadow walking side my side with me..
2010 Jun
-Dad, your guiding hands on my shoulder will remain with me forever and I know you will be up there, watching out for me and the family.. Love ya papa
-Life is tough, but Im tougher..
-Like Italy, fews yrs back, we are at the top and everything was great but now we are at the rock bottom..
-While you're out happily enjoying with your friends, don't forget to spent some quality times with your folks, just like how they squeeze out time for you when you're young..
-No matter how poor a man is, if he has a family, he's rich..
2010 July
-I have been wondering why you guys are so obessed with thai chicks? Why people around me are all becoming siam-wannabe? Does the problem lies with the local girls?
-Frankly, we all know they are here to work, their job is to serve to our needs, and they are buildin relation afterwork, just like every PR manager to safeguard their customers.. Sometime we got to learn to differentiate.. an...d the weakness in most people is they see it as love, when they are extremely nice to em.. people go thai disco because there're willing, attractive, exotic girls throwing themselves at em.. n some from afar trying to step mysterious and playin hard to get but eventually sure get one and this transported into a fantasy movie world with themselves as the star.. haa~ and some of the regulars would enhance the fantasy by not actually spenting much on the girl, the girls of course play up to this fantasy of bf and gf cause it's part of the allure and part of the job. they stay with the guys, go to the movies with them, hold hands in the street with them. They make it almost like a real romance... right anot you tell me?
-I rmb back then, on this very day, I was in the parade square representing RSN, and after the parade, the Tracom commander, LTC Tan W M give me a compliment in front of my batch boys saying, "You done a great job! we need THINKING soldiers like him in our force. And today, again I attended the parade but I was sitting in the spectator shade THINKING about what he had said..
-I guess everyone wears a mask. Different faces under different circumstances, as we had a role to play.. Sometimes we're the leading actor n sometimes the supportin, sometimes the good guys n sometimes the bad..
-Live ur life like israel kamakawiwo did or like gunther does..
-The right time to start is 16. Because its the time we are not allow to do many things and when you did those things before the legal age it gives you a kinda satisfaction. The age you can do any shit and wouldn't be charge under supreme court. Imptly fren u met during this period are really friends with you when you haD nth.. People don't look up to you by your status n wealth..
-Can secret be kept forever even till the day you step into the coffin?
-When you suddenly received a msg from ur old fling who never contact you for 5 years, obviously she is telling you she's craving for something..
-Drenched again but i just freakin love this feeling... Cmon wash away my sins, my swayness n my unhappiness..
-Colin: Cometh the hour, cometh the man" When the time has come, you will shine. Till then hold on my brother..
2010 Aug
-Love is evil.. spell it backwards n i'll show ya
-Cant believe this fools actually went to put about with her nonsense, obviously this annoyin drama queen is hallucinating.. eh grow up la fcukin dramatic-seeking attention hound... n if u fools really wanna help, i rather u ppl bring her to seek help from a mental health professionals...
-Hmm.. maybe i shld go circumcise..
-Life nw is exactly like been trapped inside an iron maiden.... tats nth I could do, what I'm going through inside, could not be seem nor heard frm the outside.... my movement are restricted, any lil action would incure pain or could be vital..
2010 Sept
-On the way back in a freezer like bus, sittin at a corner, lookin at the blurry glass panel whr condensation is ocurrin outside, starin into the coloured water droplets create by the convergin street light, unknowingly lost in the memories..
-Memories of us is been silently erase and replace each passing days.. feelings we once shared had been forgotten and lost.. promises we once made had been abandoned and left astray.. images of me breaking into splinters, fading away into space.. this decaying friendship of ours is almost dead..
-Bottoms up,lit a cigarette,take a puff,blow out the smoke,watch it rolls into the air and disappears into the empty space.Staring into the fluttering laser lights,shut off my mind,close my eyes.Put me in state of unconsciousness while the music beats at same pace of my heart beats.When this process is completed,eyes open,feets up,I should dancing to the music,draining away every bits of my energy.. Miss this feeling..
-When you could see your shadow, its means there is a light shining nearby..
2010 Nov
-Some people ask u question, but nvr listen to ur answer. They're only interested in answer that confirm their way of lookin at things...
2010 Dec
-Life would be boring when thats no changes ard mah.. N i always believe things happen n change for a good purpose n sometimes when things turn out bad we kpkb because we r yet to see the final outcome yet, when the day u're through den u would realise its purpose. n when one sae tat their character can nvr change, tats bullshit, everyone r the same, we all had only a common thing called human nature tats nvr change. Enviroment change one would be force to change. Ppl tat sae their character nvr change cuz maybe they wan to create this image for others to c n they r too used to hw they or others label themself right nw. When one wear a mask for too long, they forget who they r originally.
-I had many failures over the yrs,lost in academics,lost my freedom,lost in relationship,lost my closest kin,lost human affection,lost my mind,lost my career,lost respect,lost almost everythin at one go bt at the same time i gained experiences n learnt many impt lessons.One impt factor that kept me goin regardless of the incomin failures n help me regain my lost possessions each time I fall is to persist,never give up
